hi…umm im sorta freaked out, ever since my grandmother died ive been able to do some really…messed up things,and as i grow i cn do more things.im scared cause whn i ask my family they all say they cant do anything unique like tht…noone in my family could..but thn i think my family is serverly religious and believes what i talk about is childish nonsense…is there anyway i cn talk to someobne to find out who i am and where it comes from? and is there anyway i cn control it?

Merry Meet Seeker,
I am not sure what you mean when you say that you are able to do some really messed up things. However, as you grow older, you may make sense of it all. Also, make sure that you do not hurt anyone or anything in the process of understanding what is happening to you. It seems like you were a favorite of your grandmother and she is trying to give you some encouragement. These powers are inherent in us but at times, spirits can make us even more powerful.
Always remember to use your powers only for the good of mankind and every other living thing on Earth. Many people are blessed with psychic and other supernatural powers, sometimes at birth itself. These people probably are here to guide the rest of humanity. So your powers are here to help and not to hurt anyone.
You have mentioned that your family is too religious and scared to deal with our human existence and all the powers that we have. In this case, you may have to read some good books on Witchcraft and learn by yourself what all this means and how you can benefit from it. You can find good Wicca or other witchcraft books by searching online for “Witchcraft books”. At times, sites like Amazon may allow us to read parts of the book.
The powers come from the Universe or maybe ever outer space. We have no proof of that but it doesn’t mean that it could not happen that way. Also, you will need to control your powers so that they will never be used for harmful reasons. With these powers you can help create world peace or remove all sorts of diseases from the world and even get rid of poverty and famine.
Brightest Blessings.
Rose.